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Whose arms would I run to if I were drunk and there were no consequences?

Ever since I injured my back, I'm on some serious pain meds and muscle relaxers. These make me have some crazy dreams. A lot of people have been in my dreams. A lot of dreams I never wanted to have.

Oh and I injured myself by getting bucked off of a horse. Her name's River and she's just a baby, barely saddle-broke. She didn't like her bit (we used what's called a broken bit instead of a normal bit). Well the broken bit also didn't have a curb chain which acts as a brake. She got pissy and bucked me off. I hit the ground and I thought something shattered.

Then, there's my ex, Wes, who just got a new girlfriend. I don't know why this eats at me. I broke up with him because he was possessive, jealous, selfish, and we wanted different things. I don't know, I know I could get him back in an instant if I were to shoot him a message and said I missed him. He would dump her and her kid and come back to me. I won't do that. I won't give up everything I have built with Tripp for a feeling a control.

Back to the dreams, of course most people have drug induced dreams of flying on dragons or something of that crazy magnitude. No. I get dreams of watching ex's fall hopelessly in love, while I stand frozen. And in my dreams I'm alone. No Tripp or anyone that loves me. I wake up scared and upset until I calm down and remind myself that I don't actually have feelings for these guys anymore.

These drugs are upsetting me. They mellow me out and that's not my personality and maybe that's why I'm feeling upset. I just can't wait until I get off of them and go back to feeling like myself. Happy and bubbly and hyper.

But in other news I love my new job. I am a runner at a movie theater that you order at your seat and they bring the food to you. It's super busy during the beginning and ends of the movies. Between that we just chill out and talk or go on our phones, and make 8 bucks an hour doing it. I also get as many free movies as I want, can bring as many guests as I want, get 75% off food while I'm working, 50% off when I'm not working, I get to see movies the day before they come out and can bring a guest to it. I'm working with my best friend, Stephen. My boyfriend, Tripp and a fellow reenactor, Ruch are both trying to get jobs their as well. So if they start working their too, this will be the best summer ever.

Gotta go.
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: A playlist of rock, metal, and country
  • Reading: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
  • Watching: OHSHC or Drawn Togther


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Ello I'm Haley!


I love writing. Poetry, fables, short stories, fantasies, whatever comes to mind.

I also love photography. I don't have a nice Nikon D40 but I happily make do with my TL200.

Random crap I love: Horses, video games, running, bacon, making up imanginary worlds, living in my imamginary worlds, animals, being in love, Speech and Deabte, boys with accents, the military (especally the Air Force), rain, cloudy days, flowers (especally roses), chivalry

Random crap I hate: Vegetables, people that are mean for no real reason, homophobes, narrow-minded people, degrading rap music (there is some good rap out there...but not much)

Oh and hit me up on my Skype, if you wanna, I'm addicted to it now. Don't be shy, come say hi! <- That was not orignially intended to rhyme but I like it!

Current Residence: My Mind
Favourite genre of music: Metal, Rock, Country
Favourite photographer: Me! Haha, I'm not that conceited...or am I?
Favourite cartoon character: Garfeld or Archie
Personal Quote: Your heart has reasons that reason does not understand

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ScarletDevil1503 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hello! Thank you very much for adding my poem "I Am Flawed" to your Favorites. I greatly appreciate your support. :heart:

hushed-lullabies Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday! (: <3
Sunrise-Spirit Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2011
Thanks a lot for the watch! I really appreciate it! :hug:
Toxikomani Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011
Hi, and welcome to :iconmodify-my-mind:
Please, make sure that you read the rules on the front page, and read the blog from time to time, to get updates about rules, folders or any notice about what's going on.
I hope you will enjoy your stay :)
MithraEchelon6277 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
ty for the fave!
Evilangel642 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
No problem! I love what you did with how your industrials cross, its very cute!
MithraEchelon6277 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you!!
i may be taking of them out - the back end has shifted and it's getting uncomfortable :-( but i already know what i'd have to replace it
Zortje Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Student Interface Designer
Thank you so much for :+fav:'ing my work :D
AustriaKaninchen Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2011  Hobbyist
adore your icon, it's so true....
Evilangel642 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, I found it a long time ago and I loved it.
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