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Crumble Around Her Feet. 

Life finally beat me.

It won.
  • Mood: Defeated
My dogs are underfoot, my bed is amazingly comfortable, I have my own room in which I don't have to worry about my roommate being in when I reach a squeal worthy part of a video game. Life is good. 

I just need to get my mom's last Christmas present then I'm done with Christmas shopping, well for other people. I'm still torn on getting another piercing or going to the Laotian jump school.

I think I'm going to pick up "hooping." It's an art form/dance where you dance with/while hula hooping. It's gorgeous. Plus there are light up hula hoops which are even more beautiful.

Oh! And before I forget...

Expect an overload of Dragon Age smut...if I can finish writing them. I may have also started Dragon Age II which will consume my life (hopefully) as much as Dragon Age: Origins. 

I'd say I have a problem but I prefer to call it a solution. 

My boyfriend just turned 21, so that's lovely. I feel bad cause I am super sick on his birthday and so I wasn't in a peppy mood, so I'm going to make it up to him by taking him out to a really nice dinner (where he can order a beer!) once I feel better.

Umm yada yada, blah blah blah. Dragon Age Time! 
  • Mood: Christmas Spirited
  • Listening to: Country Mix
  • Reading: Really bad Dragon Age Smut
  • Watching: Hooping videos
  • Playing: Dragon Age II
  • Eating: I don't know, but I'm hungry
  • Drinking: Diet Coke
My own fish is judging me right now. Granted, Garrus is a judgement, selfish asshole. 

I'm drunk, so I'm not even sure what I'm writing. 

My life is both falling into place and falling to pieces.

Ah, I knew my love of the word juxtaposition would eventually be my downfall. 

My grades are wonderful, my chances of getting into the top tier law schools (Georgetown in DC) are raising by day, I'm helping present a psychology experiment at a conference, my rifle scores are going up, I've been blowing people away with my public speeches, even gaining a leadership role in my international public speaking group and I'm...just hitting the marks or everything I've ever wanted. 

Yeah, I keep sabotaging myself. Why? 

I know the answer.

Let us also forget, I lost my grandmother that lived across the street from me since I was 3, who helped raised me and I have to put my dog down that I've had since I was five.

I just...I...

I'm going to write some stories, then I'm going to bed.

These are problems for future Haley to deal with. 
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Daughtry
  • Playing: Dragon Age
  • Drinking: Rum and Coke
My own fish is judging me right now. Granted, Garrus is a judgement, selfish asshole. 

I'm drunk, so I'm not even sure what I'm writing. 

My life is both falling into place and falling to pieces.

Ah, I knew my love of the word juxtaposition would eventually be my downfall. 

My grades are wonderful, my chances of getting into the top tier law schools (Georgetown in DC) are raising by day, I'm helping present a psychology experiment at a conference, my rifle scores are going up, I've been blowing people away with my public speeches, even gaining a leadership role in my international public speaking group and I'm...just hitting the marks or everything I've ever wanted. 

Yeah, I keep sabotaging myself. Why? 

I know the answer.

Let us also forget, I lost my grandmother that lived across the street from me since I was 3, who helped raised me and I have to put my dog down that I've had since I was five.

I just...I...

I'm going to write some stories, then I'm going to bed.

These are problems for future Haley to deal with. 
  • Mood: Confused
  • Listening to: Daughtry
  • Playing: Dragon Age
  • Drinking: Rum and Coke
I'm scared. 

I use to have horrible, crippling migraines when I was young. 

Well I had another one that started yesterday morning. It's not completely debilitating, but it's still here over 24 hours later.

What scares me, is after the worst part of it went away, it's changed my mood.

I feel like I'm pre-panic attack, but the panic attack will never start which is worse than it just happening and getting it over with. My stomach feels like it's about to throw up. I feel feverish and clammy. I'm shaking. I'm paranoid, anxious, and scared. I feel like I'm on the verge of tears over nothing. I can't focus. I'm dizzy. I feel like I'm moving through a foggy dream. My limbs feels different, I...can't explain it. Even while writing this, I feel like I'm going to pass out, but then I get spurts of random super energy for like three minutes. I can't eat and I can drink water if I drink it very slow.

I'm assuming this is just interacting with my anemia for some weird, fucked up effect. 

Why today? I have a paper due in an hour that's done, I just have to edit it and a final for my creative writing class that I have to turn in tonight that I haven't even started.

As long as I don't have a seizure, I can handle this. If I have one, then I'll go to the infirmary. I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine. 

Other than that, life's been good. Beat Mass Effect 2 on Hardened, going for an Insanity run with Infiltrator class. Just bought the DLC's as well.

If I don't die, I'll update y'all later.

 
  • Mood: Pain
  • Listening to: Country Mix
  • Playing: Mass Effect 2
  • Drinking: Water
Crumble Around Her Feet. 

Life finally beat me.

It won.
  • Mood: Defeated

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Haley
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Hey y'all I'm Haley.

I'm 20 years old junior in college.
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Model, photographer, writer, and poet.

I mainly write in the sci-fi, fantasy, historical, and steampunk genres. I am currently working on getting some of works published.

For my poems, I am also working on getting these published as well.

My photography focuses on nature, animals, and occasionally candid human subjects.

For modeling, I am available for photo shoots. I will post a link to my portfolio as soon as I get it perfected. I am fine with modeling for free. As a small photographer, I love helping other small photographers.

Outside of that:

I love cosplay and cons. If you live on the East Coast and go to cons, we will probably meet up, and we definitely should!

I love video games. I am currently working on setting up a gaming/geekdom YouTube channel with my friends.
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Kivutar Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave. c:
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ScarletDevil1503 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hello! Thank you very much for adding my poem "I Am Flawed" to your Favorites. I greatly appreciate your support. :heart:

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hushed-lullabies Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday! (: <3
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Sunrise-Spirit Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2011
Thanks a lot for the watch! I really appreciate it! :hug:
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Toxikomani Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011
Hi, and welcome to :iconmodify-my-mind:
Please, make sure that you read the rules on the front page, and read the blog from time to time, to get updates about rules, folders or any notice about what's going on.
I hope you will enjoy your stay :)
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WoodenSpoonie Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
ty for the fave!
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Evilangel642 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
No problem! I love what you did with how your industrials cross, its very cute!
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WoodenSpoonie Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you!!
i may be taking of them out - the back end has shifted and it's getting uncomfortable :-( but i already know what i'd have to replace it
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Zortje Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Student Interface Designer
Thank you so much for :+fav:'ing my work :D
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adore your icon, it's so true....
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