Deviant Login Shop  Join deviantART for FREE Take the Tour
About Literature / Hobbyist Member Haley20/Female/United States Group :iconself-injuryclub: Self-InjuryClub
Here to support self-injurers
Recent Activity
Deviant for 6 Years
Needs Premium Membership
Statistics 165 Deviations 284 Comments 8,940 Pageviews

Newest Deviations


I had a wonderful and peaceful night of sleep last night, albeit very short. Then once I come back from breakfast I decide to take a little nap to tide me over. Then, of course, I have a dream.

And he was in it, oh why did he have to be in it?

In the dream, I remember this because as soon I was in my Air Force class, I spent the next 30 minutes writing every little detail could recall, I had just gone back to my room. My roommates were being loud so I went outside on the galleries, and their were two boys already out there, sitting. We'll just call them R and O cause while they didn't have names, for some reason I knew which company they were in. Well I sat down and R was about 4 feet to my left and O was about 4 feet to his left. All of the sudden, this hysterically angry girl dressed in something pea green comes running up to R followed by a senior on guard or the OD, someone with a sword. She pulls out a pistol and points I at R. (I honestly know exactly where this came from, one of my teammates is dating a crazy He tells her, "You won't." She replies with something along the lines of, "Well how about this?" Then she turns, O had just gotten up and had just begun to run when she pulled the trigger. I don't think he was dead, just that he quit moving. She turned back to R and I was frozen, too afraid to move. By now cadets had come out onto the galleries. Eventually, someone from my company creeps up to me and tells me to run. I get up and dash behind the letter. I collapse and begin to shake. And then he's there. This is where the dream starts to become foggy, but I remember picking me up and setting my head in his lap. And he just strokes my head and comforts me. Then it gets really weird and we are like instantly in a park or something (my alarm was going off at this point, I could hear it in my dream so that's probably why it got weird.) 

That was a fun slap to my sanity which I so desperately clinging to as it is.

I have my photoshoot tomorrow so I can't afford to not be all there mentally. If I do well, I'm going to do a boudoir (lingerie, bedroom, corsets, essentially sexiness) photoshoot with her. I can't fuck this up. I can't.  

I wish I could go deeper into discussing this, but there is nowhere near enough time for me to even scratch the surface.

I'll probably delve deeper into this tonight, I doubt I'll be able to sleep much.
  • Mood: Confused
  • Listening to: In This Moment/New Nickelback single
  • Reading: Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone
  • Playing: Mass Effect 3


Artist | Hobbyist | Literature
United States
web stats

Ello I'm Haley!


I love writing. Poetry, fables, short stories, fantasies, whatever comes to mind.

I also love photography. I don't have a nice Nikon D40 but I happily make do with my TL200.

Random crap I love: Horses, video games, running, bacon, making up imanginary worlds, living in my imamginary worlds, animals, being in love, Speech and Deabte, boys with accents, the military (especally the Air Force), rain, cloudy days, flowers (especally roses), chivalry

Random crap I hate: Vegetables, people that are mean for no real reason, homophobes, narrow-minded people, degrading rap music (there is some good rap out there...but not much)

Oh and hit me up on my Skype, if you wanna, I'm addicted to it now. Don't be shy, come say hi! <- That was not orignially intended to rhyme but I like it!

Current Residence: My Mind
Favourite genre of music: Metal, Rock, Country
Favourite photographer: Me! Haha, I'm not that conceited...or am I?
Favourite cartoon character: Garfeld or Archie
Personal Quote: Your heart has reasons that reason does not understand

AdCast - Ads from the Community




Add a Comment:
ScarletDevil1503 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hello! Thank you very much for adding my poem "I Am Flawed" to your Favorites. I greatly appreciate your support. :heart:

hushed-lullabies Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Happy Birthday! (: <3
Sunrise-Spirit Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2011
Thanks a lot for the watch! I really appreciate it! :hug:
Toxikomani Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011
Hi, and welcome to :iconmodify-my-mind:
Please, make sure that you read the rules on the front page, and read the blog from time to time, to get updates about rules, folders or any notice about what's going on.
I hope you will enjoy your stay :)
MithraEchelon6277 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
ty for the fave!
Evilangel642 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
No problem! I love what you did with how your industrials cross, its very cute!
MithraEchelon6277 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you!!
i may be taking of them out - the back end has shifted and it's getting uncomfortable :-( but i already know what i'd have to replace it
Zortje Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011  Student Interface Designer
Thank you so much for :+fav:'ing my work :D
AustriaKaninchen Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2011  Hobbyist
adore your icon, it's so true....
Evilangel642 Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, I found it a long time ago and I loved it.
Add a Comment: